Heidi Montag told PEOPLE "I'm very fragile,"and "I'm not in a great place right now."
The long road to recovery hasn't been an easy one but Heidi Montag, with weekly exercise , massages and therapy, has been working hard at the process. Still, setbacks like a stressful trip back home to Crested Butte, Colo., to confront her mom, have pushed back her healing some.
"I was hysterical the whole time," she says of the trip. "It was so hurtful. My body really set back from recovering from all the crying, stress and that traumatic experience."
Says Heidi Montag: "My insides were just throbbing and pounding but I know it's part of what I had to go through."
Despite the pain, Heidi Montag is very sure of one thing: there are no regrets. "I'm thrilled," Heidi Montag says. "I'm the happiest I’ve ever been in my life."